its been for months since my last blog..
dis is my first day working after raya..
and im stting here thinking wat to say ere,
even though got tons of works to do..
i guess i can call it ‘relax-earlier-but-tensed-last-minute’ kind of work..
hmm.. raya dis year was kinda different for me..
bcoz i clbrated with d one i luv..
samo2 ore klate..
dats the best part when u have sumone with d same kampung as u r..
well, actually my emotions are all mixed up rite now..
i dont know if this relationship is based on love, or its just fate?
fate as like..
u believe its fate, and u seem u dont care where this relationship will lead u too..
ur not being serius, u dont care bout other feelings, u just say lov u but eventually ur mind is thinking sumone else..
just go with the flow, my mind is telling me.. but its not easy..
need lots of patience…
i hate being in dis situation..
i hope i could get over evrthing in the past..
dis is y it is so hard falling in lov with ur ‘almost 9yrs’ bstfrnd..
u know their past, n when u think of it, ull make a comparison..
and that makes me mad..
i dont want this but it happened..
hope wats in future will be a happy ending after all..
after wat ive been thru, ups and downs..
emotionally hurt, i dserve better..
i dont know wats goin to happen..
but im feeling theres sumthing wrong..
sumthins getting in d way, sumthins just about to break..
hopefully not..