this journey..
to be no one to sumone..
ouch.. sakit kot..
almost 5 months have passed by..
til now im waiting..
waiting to be together again like we used to..
waiting u to change as good as u used to..
waiting for sumthin that i cant probably have..
ur love again..
since then, i felt so lost..
no one i can cling to.. only God..
i prayed every day, but still i cant control myself..
what he did, i followed..
its like ive lose my mind..
ive forgotten evrything.. who ive become and who im becoming..
all i care is that my heart has shattered into pieces..
and revenge is so sweet..
i keep prayin so dat one day..
i can forget him and his friends and family..
so God will jodohkan me with sumone who can guide me..
to be a true muslim, n not only by admitting it..
so til when i should be a hypocrite?
i dont know.. im so weak..
wat goes into my right ear, goes out thru my left ear..
im stubborn, im indecisive, im stupid, im paranoid..
if i could just forget evrything..
if i could just run away from here..
if i could just be good again..
will it be til sept ends? oct ends? or d end of d end?
-d end for now-
(coz i might say stupid stuffs and merapu byk lg if i continue…
u want to say dat im poyo, BOLOQ, ntapape?
ske atiku diriku.. c urself in d mirror first..
dats all i got to say..)