d good gene

have u ever wondered, where u came from?
whos ur great,great grandpa or grandma?
were they a good or bad person?
as for me,
im really grateful to have the genetic of a great and religious family..
but as i shud have taken this opportunity to be a better person,
i got 'tersimpang' a bit..
astaghfirullahalazim..
may Allah always shows me the guidance and right path..
so here let me tell u the story of my great grandfather..

Haji Abdullah Tahir was one of the well-known religious leaders in Kelantan due to his vast knowledge in fiqah and also because he was the founder of Bunut Payong cottage.He was in the same team as Haji Ali Pulau Pisang, Haji Yaakub Lorong Gajah Mati, Haji saad Kangkong and Haji Ahmad Batu Tiga repek.

He was taught by Tok Kenali for 15 years before pursuing his further studies in Mecca.There, he attended lectures by Tuan Mukhtar Bogor, Syeikh Said al-Yamani, Syeikh Mohd. Ali al-Maliki and others.

Upon his return to Kelantan, he was requested to join the teaching staff of Halaqat Kitab at Muhammadi Mosque in Kota Bharu but not for long. In 1931, he established his own education centre known as Madrasah Ahmadiah in Bunut Payong, Tuan Guru Haji Nik Abdullah Tahir devoted his time to the religious teaching at Bunut Payong cottage until the end of his life. He was known as a religious leader who was self-disciplined and diligent in teaching.Due to his determination, Bunut Payong cottage succeeded in producing learned individuals like Hj. Husain Rahimi, Hj. Nik Man Sungai Budor, Hj. Abdul Aziz Pasir Tumboh and many others. He was also appointed as the head of MAIK Religious Congregation for several terms of service, since the beginning of 1932.

Kelantan lost another great and knowledgeable religious leader with his passing at 7.20 a.m. on Tuesday morning, August 15, 1961.

source taken from: http://www.kelantan.edu.my/tokoh.htm and
http://ms.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abdullah_Tahir_bin_Haji_Ahmad
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The story of my great grandfather was told in Ulama Malaysia at Astro.
I think in the month of Ramadhan, the tv show will appear again.
My family said that his picture is shown in Kelantan Museum
but ive never been there even though i can call myself as a Kelantanese.

And how im related to my great grandfather?

Nawwar (me)--> Hazami (mom)--> Zainab (grandma)--> Abdullah Tahir (great grandpa)

My grandma used to tell me when the Japanese soldiers attack Kelantan,
they didnt have the guts to enter a Tok Guru's house,
made my grandma and her siblings safe from the soldier's rape.

I think thats y til to this day,
im still safe from anything bad that ever happens to me, and my family..
With the doa of the eldest, especially my mom who always pray for me,
InsyaAllah things will be better for me..

never giv up!

finally, after all the endless doa..
after the endless waiting for 4 years since i got my ccna/ccnp..
i got a job as a network engineer! my dream job..
alhamdulillah.. im so grateful to HIM..
can u imagine wat its like..
doing the same boring job everyday..
and all this while, i can feel theres an empty space inside..
i feel like that i cant succeed further..
and it makes life so much depressing..
but now, i feel relieved..
like theres one burden taken off frm my shoulder..

now i can take one step ahead..
stabilizing my career and gain upper level..
no need to change companies nymore..

even if my salary is a bit lower from now,
but doing what u like makes u care less than nything else..
that wat makes me happy.. !

i would like to thank God for making my prayers come true..
my parents, for their doa and support..
also qiey, my longest and kindest friend who helped to pass my resume..
we played with each other when we were young, we went to the same school on the same van, and now we will work in the same team! ho yeahh..
and not to forget, bakti, my bf who waited for me when i was interviewing till he falls asleep in the car.. and for his teguran that can be hurtful sumtimes, but just tryin to make me a better person..
lov u all...

wat i learn from this whole career experience is..
do not ever give up pursuing your dream..
in the meantime, need lots of doa and patience..
who else can give u rezeki if its not HIM?
its just a matter of time, dream will become reality..

and so this is wat i called pursuit of happyness! :)

credit card

surprise.. surprise..
checked my crdit card transactions few days ago..
and found extra 50 bucks for service tax..
thought it was for overdue, but i never paid later than that..
i called to ask..
they said that its for the government tax..
rm50 per customer for a year!
and more tax? what else that needs to be taxed in this country?
rm50 is a lot for standard ppls..
i cud fill my car wit oil for one whole week..
and wat makes me a bit mad is from this below news;

"Banks are likely to absorb the RM50 service tax on credit cards, considering that they already provide cardholders with rebates worth more than this."
-source taken from the star

its just the bank's reason to give rebates.. im using petronas crdt card for a year now, n till now i havent got any rebates.. so wats the 'worth more than this means?

rm50 for NOTHIN..

lone ranger

yesterday, it was raining heavily when i stepped out of d office..
then this colleague, wanted to share my umbrella..
so we walk together, and she was holding it..
i got wet too because it didnt cover me wholly..
i didnt mind because i like being wet, then ill get sick..
if sick, i can take MC, then ill get my bf's affection.. hehe..
but im working today, so im healthy as i can be..
ok.. skip bout that..
now, dis colleague, i dont kno wats her name.. i jst call her 'akak'..
and d conversation begun..
akak: 'u ni lone ranger la'..
me: 'huh? y.. sbb sorang2 ker?'..
akak: 'yerlaa.. jalan sorang2.. pegi mane sorang2'
me: 'haha.. bahagia idup kot'
the end...

well truth is, i dont mind being alone.. at certain circumstances..
actually not evrything alone, i alwayz eat with dis chinese guy..
but maybe coz i dont join the malay grls..
doesnt mean dat im avoiding them, i also join their activities, netball, gym..
my style.. avoid the girls first.. gossip girls.. xoxo.. haha
jealousy is all around.. dats y its good to b friends wit boys..
ok, so ill just be silent first for sumone i dont know..
then ill observe wat kind of attitude they got..
at this state, ppl will say dat im arrogant.. haha
but later, yeaahh.. when u get to know me.. crazy as i can be..
my secret, i have a superhero power..
sumtimes ill know wat kind of attitude they got by looking at their face..
hmm.. sumtimes im right, sumtimes im wrong..
u shud try it.. first look at their mouth.. heeeeee
u can see if ones the loud type or not..
then, look at their face expression..
u can make a conclusion just by that..
so dats it, happy reading one's face! :)

“None of us will ever accomplish anything excellent or commanding except when he listens to this whisper which is heard by him alone.”
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

bo lembu.. eesh eesh

bila baca blog ni berulang kali, spt nta pape plak kan..
org klantan pgl, jiwo molek.. hahaha!
daus la ni, tanak baca sbb geli..
dah laa mencemarkan chat box dgn menyamar sbg aku..
tapi takpe, mari meriahkan bersama.
mimi pon ckp aku JK - jiwa kacau.. hehe
infact almost evryone ckp mcm tu..
but the truth is, korg akan sunyi tanpa gelak tawa aku kan..
haa, sape je gelak spesel mcm aku ni? krohh.. krohh..
sandra bullock je bleh buat.. i tell u..
ok time to go back..
sok hari baru, blog baru lagi.. kalau ade masa.. yooosshhh..

revived!!

huhuh..
finally, ive activated this blog again!..
i started using it since 2004.. and stopped all d activities at 2006..
jst now got problems signing in, coz i cant remember d username n password!
n another problem is the email i used for this blog is my old email..
owhhh how much i lovd my old email - urstink@yahoo.com..
it got hacked at 2006.. and dat was my oldest email since 1997!
i will not HALALkn whoever is using it..
and still i cant login into myspace coz using dat email also..
and i forgot d password also! hahhaa silly me..

i dont know wats wrong wit my head now..
usually, i can remember phone numbers or birthdays easily..
i also cant remember my bf's handphone either!
but after i only force myself to remember, then only i can remember it now..
haiyaa, now i hafta eat kismis evryday..
as wat my ex asked me to do..
he can remember things easily, and smart oso.. dats y im followng his advice..
ok.. stop praising d devil now.. whoops!
to increase ur memory, as soon as u wakeup,
eat 7 kismis with a glass of air suam, and selawat 7 kali.. amalkn stiap pagi..
insyaAllah u will not be nyanyuk..

now for the updates..
last 2 weeks, my car was hit frm behind at d bukit jelutong toll..
just a small one.. and need some paint job..
i havent fix it yet..
but still, ill get afraid when driving, especially when it involves car braking..
berdebar2 jantungkuuuuu... ohh..
ill look at d front mirror and see if the car behind me 'sempat' brake or not..
if not, duuuuuuumm again! huu mintak jauuuhh lagiii..

now for d love life..
hmmm quite a bit of problems here n there..
lov sucks.. in d beginning, yeaahh evrything is so wonderful..
u jump i jump la rite...
hmm, then 6 months later, dats when u get to know d REAL person ur with..
fuuuuuuuuuuuhh! its makin me craaaazzzzzzyyy!!
i can tell u dat its for sure..
i just hope things will go smooth between us...
and plz mouth.. when im angry, just shutup coz ur gonna worsen evrything!
but after the good and bad things happen, and what were goin thru til now,
i still looov him..
i guess im stupid sumtimes when it comes to lov.. evrtyime lah u!

next, job!
las week, i got an interviw wit a scret company.. it went ok i guess..
so the result shud be las friday, but now its monday!! monday bluessss..
hmm y issit called monday blues, not monday yellowish or smthing?
im hoping to get dat job, coz ive been waiting for 4 years to be a network engineer!
dat wat will me happy for d rest of my life, besides getting married n hav my own child!
but guess.. im stuck forever wit dis boring job again..
and wit boring ppls around..

so conclusion of this entry is..
me will never giv upppp..
me will try hard!!
me will COMPLAIN a lot but me will move ahead!!
(or else, i think i shud be dead by now..suicide? noo..)
me lov wat me got!!
me lov me! me cry, me hapy, me am me!
me lov God! really do.. HE gave a lot to me!
me can do it! hoo yeaaahh..
me strong.. come on bebehh...

tq i lov u for reading my blog.. huhuh hahaha
rasa mcm org psycho lak sumtimes.. noooooooott!

p/s: wheres my lovie dis mrning? no goodmrning email frm him.. syg ooo syg..