music of my heart

im so excited today... heheh... know y?
coz i found a good song!!
back then, i lov to go to gigs and hear bands playing..
or just download songs thats interesting to my ears..
the soundtrack movie, or soundtrack frm drama series, or someone singing it in public.. u name it, ill find the song til d 'worm's hole'..
but since few years back, ive stop downloading other new songs..
now im back...... to search for more....

like to share with u one song i found... so good! and d lyrics, suitable for my situation now... hahahha.. GO ON NAWWAR!!!!!! will be back for more never-heard-in-radio songs..



Say No to Love

Yeah I’m looking for you
and I know you’ll be found
with the parking lot kids,
with the loneliest crowd
And his heart’s on his sleeve

and your hand’s on the wheel
trying hard not to say
what you just don’t feel -
yeah you just don’t feel

Now you’re looking away
could you plan an escape
from the places you’ve known,
where they know your mistakes?

And you wish he would stop
and you wish you weren’t steel
should you try to do something
that you just don’t feel?

Something’s coming,
but nothing ever does
Something’s coming
you better say no to love

When everything he says is wrong
and all you want to feel is “gone”
go on

When everything he does is wrong
and all you want to feel is “gone”
go on

tolol~

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love".


-Neil Gaiman-

redlight is coming..
my mood is swinging..
my eyes are tired..
my mind is awake..
my fingers are moving..

im bongok.. for missing u..
and u r a tolol..
so dat makes me a tongek..
and wat m i merepek'ing'??!
iii needd sum sleeeep..!

ngantoknyeeeee.......

y women always have the mood swing? i dont like it..
ladies and gents, this is called PMS.. please read,

http://www.womenlivingnaturally.com/articlepage.php?id=100 or,
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Premenstrual_syndrome

n im havin all the mood symptoms now..
-Depression-Sadness-Anxiety-Anger-Irritability-Frequent and severe mood swings

so please dont mess wit me now... dudududuuu~

cant ignore it

“I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other;for those were some of the best times of my life.”

every night, every day.. ur always there in my mind..
hard to fall in love again..
bcause ur like a nail that cant be pulled out..
stucked in my brain..
but u were never there in my dreams..
cant open my heart to others..
i tried..
then our moments kept flashing back..
oh God..
how much i really need u now..
to see ur eyes looking at my eyes again..
i miss u....
but i cant do anything..
bcoz u hate me well enuff....

movin on..

alhamdulillah...

it has been 2 mnths, and 8 days now.. ive manage to go thru all d pain again and this time, doa yg berterusan+solat saved me.. i got more courage and im much happier now.. wit me, all by myself to figure out what i want in life.. wat i used to be back then.. the cheerful me..

i started to love HIM and asked my forgiveness. bertaubat for the bad things ive done in life..
seriously, after that, i feel way much better now.. and slowly accepting wats not meant for me..
i know God has planned sumthing good.. InsyaAllah..

Im not perfect

There are no tickets for tonight so im free now.. I was googling blogs in my night shift and i found something interesting just now, i dont know whether its from Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah's. So let me share it with you..

And I wish he could read this, since he told me 'Awk gf paling baik skali, awk jaga saya bagus sgt tapi sy takleh syg awk lg.. Sy suka kt pmpuan tu, lagi tinggi, lagi lawa, bljr oversea'..

the title is called 'Jangan Mencari Terlalu Sempurna'

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia
semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya
ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga .........Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu....

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia
begitu teguh.... cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu....
Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu menambalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang....Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, TERIMALAH seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya....
akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan..... yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu. MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU...
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain.. Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....