nobody knows

- taken frm a frend's page-

Nobody knows its empty
The smile that i wear,
The real one is left in the past
Bcoz U have left me there

Nobody knows I'm crying
They won't even see my tears,
When they think that I m laughing
I still wishing u were here.

Nobody knows its painful
They think that I m strong,
They say that this wont kill me
But I wonder if they were wrong.

Nobody knows I'm praying
That u will change my mind,
They think that I had let u go
When u left me behind.

Nobody knows I miss u
They think I feel set free,
But I feel like I m bound with chains
Trapped in the mystery.

Nobody knows I need u
They say I can do it on my own,
But they dont know I m crying
When I m all alone....

lov is in d airr.. lalalalaa~

wehuuuu!

probably, most of u guys wud b surprised wit d titile.. hikhik..
uve been punked! nt by ashton kutcher, my handsome bf.. but meeee! ngahaha

ok2.. so wats d story mrning glory?
dis jan, it wud be 7 mnths im single.. u heard dat rite.. * i mean read dat rite..
i realized dat im hapy dis waaayy..
dats y i gained 7kgs in 5months!! first time everrr reached 47kgs..
a month after my breakup, my weight dropped frm 43 to 40..
then after dat.... grrr... must.excercise.silly!

hey! actually, i dont want to talk bout my fatness!
it shud b about... will u marry me? hakhak

wow.. i cud say dis is d longest of me being single witout d questions/sentences like
'when will i get marry' or 'i feel so lonely witout a bf' or 'i suck' or 'im a desperado'..
truth is, now......!
im sick and tired to be in lov againnn! after all d dramas, and endless heartbreaks..
hah! or is it bcoz...
i havent meet my mr. right guy?
am i choosy?
of course lah! right now, no one is better than before.. haihh.. move on damn it!
i am. i am. its just that the 'wooooow-oooooo-hes d one!-guy' isnt just there yet.
n once ive found him, i can forget d past one easily.. yeahh..

soOOo.. wats my type of guy? jeng jeng jenggggg...
let it be a secret... or else
ull b jst sumone pathetic who only wants to impress me..
but d main thing is...
RESPONSIBILITY! >>> how can u b d leader in a marriage, if ur so stupid? evryting i need to tell u ka??
like to PRAY 5 TIMES a day!??!!
bcoz im nt dat prfect u know..
so u hev to lead me if i got lost smwhere in d jungle and accidently took d wrong path.
u shud guide me back where i shud b n NOT leave me.
evryone.is.not.perfect! .u shud nt b d DEVIL.nor.d ANGEL. ur a human.. duuuuhhh!

i keep praying to God. if hes d one for me, then open my heart to him.
if hes not, shut it tightly.
people around me, dont force me when i dont want to.
d looovv will come..
dis time it shud be d final one.. InsyaAllah..

woww.. cant wait when d time comes..
being who am i know, makes me think wat i really want in life..
whos there for me when i need it..
appreciate myself mor, nt condemning myself like b4..
and i do complain a lotttt before! but m tryin not to now.
hey im cute kannnn.. n i just reached 27, i stilll look young..
so no need to worry much..
lov life more, lov God more.. then u can seek happiness :))

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ nawwar, 13th dec - 9:27pm

thanks to grlpawa.... frnds n family, for evrthing..
eventho i might b like sum shitty smtimes, but i do lov u all...