GRRRR!!!

'This defeat hurts, we must learn the lessons' Chicharito said after Manchester United loss against Barcelona.

But.. im not focusing on Man U.
instead the Piala FA.
Kelantan lose to Terengganu (1-2).
and what lesson can be learnt from this?
JANGAN MAIN MERCUN!
diri sendiri jugak yg rugi.
tapi itu sudah ditakdirkan.
whatever it is, gomo kelate gomo.
still, kelantan tetap di hati.
and im now at kota bharu for a week.
this thursday, tahlil 40 hari untuk umi.


my friend/bro since college, Ajim and his beautiful wife, Wawa.
(11June2011 - Lundang, Kota Bharu)

Baby Nini sedih, macam da tau je Kelantan nak kalah

another thing that makes me GRRR tonight..
got a message from my 4yrs-ex.
'nawwar jom lepak?'
ok. heres the thing.
i have denied his request to be my friend at FB.
i didnt reply when he asked for my handphone number.
and now, hes asking me to go out with him.
3 strikes, and you still dont get it, do you??

there is a reason why i cant be friends with him.
and that is 'once i hate u, i will hate u forever'
once i have found your weakness, and thats it.
sorry but i just cant, even though you are a nice guy.
even if you have change, its already too late.
to be my friend again.

meow meow

i wanna go back home so bad.
i miss abyadh! poor kitty.
have to feed her. she was so cold and helpless the last time i left her.

last night, she was meowing all day in front of my house.
and the day before. i thought it was somewhere inside someone's house.
but then, i saw that it was actually right outside my neighbor's door.
the poor baby was shaking and meowing badly, alone without its mom.
my neighbor put a cloth and a bowl of milk.
but it doesnt know how to lick it yet.
so i kidnapped abyadh since my neighbor wasn't home yet.

chup! chup! why the name abyadh?
it means white in arabic.

so i made a cup of anlene milk for me and tried to feed her a bit.
but she refused to drink it.
asked my friends via fb and tweet, how to feed this poor baby.
tried using a cotton bud, as my friend's advice. it worked a bit.
but then, nadia from flyfm advised me not to feed with cows milk.
ooo oww!!

but WHY?? and here's why..
DO NOT USE COW MILK! Never feed a kitten cow's milk or human baby formula as this causes stomach upset and severe diarrhea. If a kitten is already dehydrated, this could prove fatal. This includes condensed/evaporated canned cow's milk!

oh my, oh my.. luckily it was only for a few sip.
anyway, thanks guys for your replies.

the next day, i managed to buy
a bottle = rm6.30
KMR (kitten milk replacer) = rm10

total = rm16.30. anything for the hungry baby.

went back home, made a hole for the bottle but i accidently cut it big.
but i fed abyadh anyway.

NOTE: (so that you will not repeat the same mistake i did)
Test the bottle to make sure the hole is not too large or too small. If it is too large it will gush out and the kitten might choke or aspirate, if it is too small formula will not come out unless you squeeze it. A hole too small will cause the kitten to not get any formula at all. Hold the bottle with the nipple down and if the formula drips out slowly then it is just right. Test the warmth of the formula to make sure it is not too hot or too cold. After feeding, the kitten may need to be burped.

deng! did a few mistakes. hopefully abyadh is still alive when i reach home tomorrow.
should watch this youtube earlier on how to take care of the kitten.

my anniversary :)

Single

I'm single.
That's one sentence I'm not afraid to say.
Being single is great.
I wouldn't give it up for a minute.
I'm not saying being in a relationship is bad.
Having someone to love is a beautiful thing...
If you don't have all the problems.
By problems I mean the arguing, the sadness, the heartaches and breaks, the rules, the expectations, the lies and deceit.
Being single means being without all those things.
At least when it comes to having a partner.

I'm single.
And I love it.

~by Heather

babaii mr b :p

yeahuuu!!

its been a year now that im single!
i think this could be my biggest achievement. hehe.
and i might be lying to u that im in a relationship.
well, thats the only way to avoid the guys that im not just interested in.
huhu sorry. my heart is not open to public yet :p

2 more years, and im gonna be 30.
and who cares anyway if i dont have a bf yet.
serabut kepala ok.
lagi-lagi kalau berkawan lelaki yang emosional. uh please.

im enjoying my life. getting to know more new friends.
love my job. lov my friends. lov to sleep all day!
gained 8kgs in a year and had to buy new pants. ^_^
oh i wish i could celebrate my anniversary with a cake. huhu

ps: my ex, b. thanks for giving me this opportunity! i could be crying over you throught the year but you made me stronger. you made me think the one who should i love, and who should i remember always, that is Allah s.w.t.

motif? saya gembira! lalala~

motif? saje nk tjuk my first grey contact lens dat i just bought. hee

Susu Kambing

That day, dengar radio IKIM FM. bukan selalu dengar pun radio ni, tapi disebabkan dekat2 maghrib and on the way balik dari kerja jadi ingat nk dengar ayat Quran. tapi b4 that, ade ceramah dari ustat pasal susu kambing. actually, i never knew manfaat susu kambing ini.

ustat tu ckp, kalau org yg berkahwin blm dpt rezeki anak, elok jugak minum utk mendptkn zuriat. sebab susu die ade molekul2 kecik yg dpt meresap masuk ke dalam darah. Nabi2 minum setiap pagi. Tatau kenapa sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w yg ini telah dilupakan. and what i only know before is, sabun susu kambing bagus utk ilangkn muka jerawat, and kulit jd licin tp tatau plak khasiat meminumnya.

Ustat tu cakap lagi, susu lembu ni tak bagus sangat sebab ada fat. alamak, baru je beli susu anlene. maklumla, da dkat 30tahun, lutut da eeok eeeokk. so sekarang dah tau, rasa mcm nk pelihara kambing plak, huhu. now i would like to share with u what i got from googling.

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Susu kambing adalah paling hampir dengan susu ibu (minuman terbaik di dunia selepas susu ibu). Para Nabi meminum susu kambing dan membela kambing (membela atau meminum susu kambing adalah sunnah). Tiada dijangkiti penyakit kambing gila (yang ada penyakit lembu gila.). Kurang dijangkiti penyakit kuku dan mulut berbanding lembu. Kambing mempunyai sistem pertahanan tubuh yang kuat.

Kambing betina beranak 2 kali setahun,1 hingga 4 ekor berbanding lembu setahun sekali dan hanya seekor. Lembu hanya mempunyai nafsu mengawan sekali dalam satu tahun berbanding kambing, setiap hari. Susu kambing lebih mudah dihadam. Hanya memerlukan 20 minit berbanding susu lembu memerlukan 2 jam.

"Di antara jenis minuman yang biasa diminum oleh Rasulullah S.A.W adalah susu kambing".


more source:
http://safuan.wordpress.com/2008/08/19/manfaat-susu-kambing-bagi-kesehatan/
http://www.rediesh.com/untuk-pengetahuan-anda/susu-kambing-sunnah-rasulullah-yang-telah-dilupakan

my sister just bought a goats milk powder, karihome for her baby. baby nini had diarrhea and was admitted to the hospital. she's allergic to cows milk.

for infant

minumlah saya yg comel ni :D

Still I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

~Maya Angelou

ummi

on 8th May 2011, around 7am. i just arrived at office.
didnt get the chance to sit yet, got a phone call from my sister.

sis hanan: dik, umi. umi baru meninggal

cant believe what i heard. was so shocked that i didnt cry or said anything.
my mind went blank for few seconds. umi~ my only grandma. passed away.
until now im so sad. raya will not be the same without the elders.

setiap kali balik kg, i will go to her house and sing umii~ umi~
and she would tell stories back then masa zaman jepun.
aduh, rindunya umi. bila tiada, baru terasa.

alhamdulillah, she passed away peacefully. but alone, after her prayers.
masih dalam keadaan bertelengkung, umi meninggal atas katil at my house at KB.
Zainab bt Abdullah Tahir. thats her name. we love you and will miss u Umi.
semoga berada dalam golongan yang beriman.

with umi, eidulfitri 2010

miss u :'(

this song which i always sang to her.

The Perishers - Hope You'll Be Missing Me (Like I Will Miss You)

Just heard this song while 'youtube'ing. cried the moment i heard it. fell in love with this band, and the song sway is good too.

u helped them to kill me
That's all that I'm willing to say
You no longer thrill me
All you do now is stand in my way

All they say makes me feel just as safe
I've lost everything that i own
All they say makes me feel
awefully blue and alone

I wrote us a song, you weren't singing along
But I hope you'll be missing me too
I held onto too long, I did everything wrong
But I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you

I wouldn't say I've moved on
I wouldn't say I'm close to ok
Or that you no longer feel me
Or no longer stand in my way

I'm not too proud to admit to you now
That I'm still nothing more than a wreck
I do intend not to pretend til the end

I wrote us a song, you weren't singing along
But I hope you'll be missing me too
I held onto too long, I did everything wrong
But I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you

I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you

pakcik cleaner

from the first time i saw pakcik cleaner mengosongkn tong sampah sebelah meja kerja aku ni, tiap2 kali rasa kesian bila tgk dia. sblm ni pun ada je cleaner2 lain dtg, tp tak kesian sgt pun. pakcik ni.. entahla, rasa mcm die seorang yg baik.
so everytime i see his face, mesti tertanya2 dlm benak fikiran..
pakcik ni ade family ke? da kawin ke? ada anak2 ke? berapa gaji dia dapat?
rasa mcm nk jd wartawan plak interview dia, and kalau bleh blanja dia makan. kadang2 tgk die jln balik, tunggu van dkat post guard tu, rasa mcm nk hantar dia blk. tp takut. since selalu tgk criminal minds lah, csi lah. haihs kena la berwaspada. smlm baru tgk movie the resident. conclusionnya, org baik takbleh dipercayai.

hm, ape special pasal pakcik cleaner ni smp aku pn bleh crita pasal die?

pakcik ni bkn mcm cleaner lain, peramah dan serius bila wat keje. bile selisih, dia yg first tegur dlu dan senyum.
pakcik ni tak handsome pn, muka ala2 pelakon ibrahim pendek. tapi bile die senyum, hati trasa indah skali spt jejaka hensem nk berkenalan.
but dat wasnt d real reason i post this blog. k, actually masa nk naik lift td, die ada. mcm seorang gentlemen, die bg aku msk dlu. pastu dlm lif, die tanya 'sudah makan'? aduhh, pertanyaan yg tetiba membuatknku tersentuh. rasa mcm terbalik plak, patutnye aku la tanya kan. sbb die da tua. tp tak smp hati nk tanya blk. takot die jwb, blm lagi. lagila aku ksian :( ya Allah, ko permudahknlah rezeki pakcik cleaner ni.

aku tatau pakcik ni org mane, agama ape. janji aku nk dia bahagia. mungkin, die lagi bhgia drpd aku kot?

pastu tak abih cite lagi, tadi jgak. on the way to toilet, die tgh mop kt hallway :( abisla tapak selipar aku kena. rasa mcm nk amik mop tu lap blk lantai tu. tapi dia boleh cakap ape, sory sory. sbb aku jln terinjit2 (btul ke ayat ni?). waduh, kalau cleaner lain, buat muka muncung ke dpan dah. then i said to him back, soryyy saya patot sory. yela die penat2 mop pstu kite jln atas tmpt basah tu. kotor blk. ingt senang ke nk mop ni? aku mop bilik pn sekali 2bln. tu kalau rajin. kalau mls, jwbler sdiri.

dgn itu, selagi kita bleh jaga kebersihan, jaga lah sebaik2nyer. jgn kencing mrata. jgn buang smpah merata. kalu isap okok kt bwh tu, jgn tgl tin air ke, cawan ke. mmg dorg dibyr, tp brp la sgt? kena plak buat keje kotor utk kite kan. tapiii pakcik cleaner boleh lagi senyum and say sory.

You never know what people are going through. A few kind words & a smile could turn their day around. ~IslamicThinking

-nawwar, finished typing at 3:31PM MYT

plz dont hurt me again

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again.

But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart.

So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

~Bob Marley

when mr right comes

WOW! Bob Marley, u rock!
these are the reasons y its nt easy to get marry to sumone or to be attached wit sumone..
its nt d looks, or d money.. but how comfortable u can be wit her/him..
searching for soul mate is not easy.. we cud be heartbroken and betrayed a lot!!
but when the right time comes, the mr. right comes, i cud be d happiest ppl in d whole world :)

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

— Bob Marley