luv

poyo..
m poyo?
ive made mistakes in my life.
ppl cant run from doin mistakes.
and so do i.
wat im tryin to say ere now is..
luv is blind..

the one who luvs u the most,
u never appreciate it.
i really hate him for wat he did to me before.
i was so mad for that.
when he called me, i gave so much excuses.
when he wanted to see me, i force myself to see him.
i was never happy when he approached me.
the disgust feeling came to over and over again.
but suddenly, just within this week..
i dunno why, i felt that i missed him so much.
and d other day, i dreamt, when i hug him, he didnt hug me back.
i woke up that day feeling so frustrated.
his luv for me is gone.

i realized now how much he loved me.
and its hard to find sumone like dat these days.
just sumtimes we need to take sum action to change sumone when
communication is not working anymore.
i remembered an email i got, fenghui watsoever,
marry wit sumone u luv to talk, as u get older conversation is important.
and to me, it is important.

feninnnlaa

feninnnlaa 

i wonder y, when ur trying to hate sumone and that sumone hates u back..
y it bothers alot?
i kept dreaming of that stupid person..
i want the dream to stop!
maybe i felt guilty .. but
im not the one who shud be sorry.. ! na-aah!

another thing that bothers me alot.
driving!
why cant just everyone be patient??
goshh..
nk main cucuk2 plak! ko laju pon, jam jugak!
stupidd..
last2, im the one whos faster than u..

huwaaaaa y im so moody now…
anyone wanna ride roller coaster?
cant wait to go for holiday..
and yeah, my bdays comin up..
and my handphone just rosak!!!
haihhhhh…

ha another thin..
networkin or programmin?
which is better?
So confusing!!!

MY FAV SONG NOW.. CLUMSY by FERGIE.. !

tryin 2 b bz

i need work.
tons of work.
i need to fulfil my time.
but got no task to do.
cant study, cant think.
dun wan to.
just wan to work witout thinkin.
me being dumb.
dun wan to be dat way.
me tryin to hold myself together.
its not easy.
need time and whole lot of spirit.
how am i supposed to do dat.
focus. focus and focus.
slawat and doa byk2…
Tuhan is there for me anytime.
i need Him now, and forever.
i am who i am.
i can take care of myself.
im not goin to cry in front of others.
i will be strong in front of them.
even though i felt so helpless,
i am not goin to be dat way.
frends, i luv u all 4 givin me support.
dats wat frends r for rite?
frends stick together.
dats all i have to say in dis dark morning.
its goin to rain..
my eyes wont rain. i wonder y?
i think im getting stronger day by day.
getting older, been thru lots of experience.
bad.. gewd.. happy.. sad.. all of it.
yeah, im getting wiser. not dumber.
huhuhu.
me luv myself. life must go on.
last for me,
takde doa yg didengar, takde usaha yg disia-siakan.
percaya pd diri dan hati.
cintailah diri dan segala yang kita ada.
jangan persiakannya.

damn u

y..y..?
im afraid now.
im clueless now.
im fuckin tired of thinking sumone else’s problem.
im tired of giving advices no one will hear.
i never dreamt in being in this situation.
felt trapped.
felt so annoyed and cant do anything about it.
this is way too much.
ya Allah, please guide me and all around me.
please protect me from bad peoples.
protect me from sins.
make me good. make people around me all good.
im so afraid.
i cant hold on to this anymore.
i could be.
i might be.
single.