words..

cant breathe..
hurts so much..
tears flowing heavily..
it just cant stop..

how words can be so painful to sumone..
how words can be so meaningless to sumone..
how words can change evrything..

im sick.. havin a bad fever..
im stuck in dis house..
and feeling miserable..
and feeling more miserable because of those words..

when u try hard.. so hard..
to be more patient..
to be more understanding..
even frnds told me ive changed..
that ive become more optimistic..

but wat can u do..
if u still cant give enough happiness to sumone..
eventhough theres no fighting..
eventhough theres no swearing..
eventhough theres no cheating..

so eventually, blame it on the physical..
i know im small..
i know im not sexy enuff..
i know im not so beautiful..
i know i have double chin..
and im stink too..

tell me y, i shud not feel insecure..
tell me y, i shud not feel paranoid..
u have changed day by day..
u told me things that i dont expect to hear from u..
sumtimes, i just feel like dat i want to end this..
so that i dont have to think wats on ur mind..
and i dont have to repeat the miserable days
ive gone through..
d days where i got dumped..
its hard.. and its tough..

Istiharakh will save me..
I pray to God everyday if ur not meant for me..
please shut my heart off and let the memories fade away..
but i dont want to let u go..
because i lov u so..